I feel I have played a major role in bringing up my five children as a single parent while working as a community volunteer. My first and second born children dropped out of school in form 3, and as we speak my third born is also in danger of dropping out of school while he is in form 2 because he is being sent away from school on several occassions due to lack of fees. As I watch him every day I can see that he is in danger of joining bad company that may lead him to forget about school.

My second born son is determined to sit for his form 4 exams even though he is out of school , but when I look at my budget I feel that I am unable to cater for this and I have no one I can ask to help support me in terms of fees. Although I have been doing my own business when I am not volunteering in the community, What I earn just does not seem to make ends meet.

A question that I keep asking myself is "Am I enguaging too much in community work that I am forgetting my family and my home?Does my family blame me for not managing to make ends meet and not always giving them what they need?" On several occassions I sit and cry by myself, I cry so many tears but when I finish crying my problems are still waiting for me.

As feminists are we forgetting our struggles at home? Are we forgetting about ourselves and working hard in the community and in our organizations? Ask your self and if so, when will I start taking care of myself?